Hitachi Magic Wand vibrator by Erika Moen

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lonelycoast:

Cool, but not sure what the point is.

peckface:

I’m 35 years old.  I was never really exposed to self-harm or cutting. I’d heard it mentioned before but didn’t understand or even give it a second thought.  I’ve always dealt with depression and self-image issues.  Last year my second wife left me.  She was here one day and then she was gone.  I didn’t get a goodbye or an explanation.  My dad’s alcoholism was also at its worst.  I was doing what I was supposed to do.  Working 60 hours a week, paying the bills, trying to make everybody happy, making sure everybody knew how much I loved them.  But nothing was working.  My wife was struggling big-time with addiction and ultimately chose the pills over me. My dad chose the alcohol over me.  My son chose my ex over me.  It all fell apart.  I held a .45 to my head many nights waiting for the courage to pull the trigger.  For whatever reason I didn’t do it. 

I don’t remember when but at some point I ordered a tattoo kit on Amazon.  One night I decided to try and make a mark on my skin so that no matter what I would always remember the pain I was feeling.  But something else happened.  The pain I felt from the tattoo needle puncturing my skin replaced the pain in my heart.  Not permanently of course but the rush of pain and adrenaline and drawing of blood somehow made all the other bullshit feel a lot better for a short time. Since then I’ve done it 6 times.  I haven’t done it in a while but I’ll do it again. 

I’m just sharing this to let people know that I understand.  I totally get why you cut yourself and other methods of self-harm and while I don’t think its the most constructive way to manage the hurt I don’t think its any better or worse than having some fugly, amateur looking tattoos.  Everybody copes differently and if something works for you and helps you make it through another day then do whatever makes you feel better.  Not a soul on this earth has the authority to judge you.

EE: Well put Peckface. I get this all too well. That is why some of us have lots of ink and metal in our bodies. It is an addiction because it eases the pain.

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